I go by Nur at work and it hurts

At home, my mother still wakes me with my full name, Nur Aini, singing it like a prayer before fajr while the kitchen fills with bubur and the whole house moves quietly. At work I answer to Nur. On Slack I signed as N. in meetings today because it is 'faster'. Lately it feels like I am folding parts of myself into neat little boxes to fit other people's ease. I love the sweetness of our Ramadan mornings, and I also find myself smoothing my name down for emails. Has anyone else noticed they are leaving pieces of their name behind, and how that sits with you?