Please make dua for my faith to feel mine

I am Halima, a grandmother in Harar with nine grandchildren. Every morning at fajr I sit in the kitchen, grind the coffee by hand, and pray the way my mother taught me. Last week on the minibus home from the market, a boy laughed and bumped my elbow and I noticed how automatic my prayers had become, like a familiar song I no longer remembered the words to. It hit me that I have mostly inherited my parents’ culture, not a faith that I truly believe in at my core. I want a faith that is actually mine, with real conviction and not just habit. Please make dua that Allah grant me ikhlas, guidance, and the courage to learn and feel this faith for myself. Have you felt this too? I would be grateful for your duas and if you want to share what helped you.